Everything's gonna be alright...right???

i have no idea how many time did i say that to myself.
"everything's gonna be alright.."
hundred?? maybe a thousand..
but apparently a lot of things aren't right.
i know it's weird, but wait?
i'm weird!
^^,)
but you know those tv shows, with a lot of drama and -bad- things happening every single episode, kinda like ugly betty. if you think about it, our lives is like that. i know, but it's true.
you just don't know, and don't think about it,
cause you don't see a résumé of your life every thursday night at 8 pm. you probably already said that those drama-comedy shows are stupid, fake, and ridiculous. but they're based on real people, real events, and real things.
it's no science fiction, no harry potter, no lord of the rings.

i've been scared to do the wrong move, and get hit by a bus, if you can see what i mean. i've been scared to do this, that or anything. i'm usually not like that, i usually do whatever i want, whenever i want. but i've been thinking about where this might get me, and how it could affect my life. i've always done what i wanted without really thinking, i'm one of those people working very hard until they get what they want. you know, those people who don't stop at all, until they get that thing. well, that's me. and probably you too, and probably someone else too. then, around us, other people are sitting down, relaxing, taking life very easy, and somehow waiting for death and nothing else. it's a very interesting contrast, and when you think about it for too long it gets confusing.

the thing i've mostly been thinking about is the leaving certificate and entering to college. i'm still confuse what course i'm gonna take, what university i'm going to apply.
i love forensic science, i love art, i love photography, i love electorinic and computers..
i don't know what to chose!
i'm so confuse right now!

and believe me, these are a thousand of the questions running in circle in my mind.

i guess it's normal to get to a time in your life where you need to make the point of many things, where you ask yourself a lot of questions. but still, it's a strange moment that i'm going to ask myself,
am i gonna die tomorrow? will i ever get married? will i ever have children? am i going to get the work i want to get? is the planet going to explode tomorrow? is it God coming right now? if i die, where am i going? hell or heaven?

and to be honest, i've been asking myself these questions for years and years. when i was in first grade of elementary school, instead of thinking about learning my numbers and alphabet, i'd be thinking about death, how long i'm gonna live and how i'm gonna die. i'd be scared not to wake up the next morning whenever i'd go to bed.

so is everything gonna be alright?
that i really don't know.

global warming, war, deseases, cancers, cigarettes, drugs, criminals, aids, guns, melting icebergs.
that's hard to tell if everything's gonna be alright..


::JakeyGlamour::